I Now Have a Dependant

I Now Have a Dependant

November 22, 2012

During this time in my life, not only was I going through the healing process of my 6-year relationship ending but I was also discovering that my mom was starting to need more care. My mom has always been a big part of my life; she has been a supporter of my choices and me. Since I have had some free time on my hands I have been spending, more time with her as her health has started to deteriorate and her needs are becoming larger.

Back in 2008, my mom suffered from a bowel blockage that she never really seemed to recover from. Turns out that there was some excess scar tissue that got stuck in her intestines and she then had some of her intestines removed to get rid of the blockage. She had lost quite a bit of weight quite quickly and her arthritis seemed to aggressively attack all of her joints.  After the surgery, she never fully recovered from it mentally and continued to be very tiny. We tried to get her weight back up to normal but everything we tried was just unsuccessful. As time went on, she continued to get worse and worse and was almost at the point where she was house bound.

This is where my free time and I come into play; I started to accompany her to all her appointments and increased my weekly visits to every other day. I noticed things that she use to be able to do she just was not able to muster the energy to get them done. Her spirits were still upbeat but she was not able to hide how she had deteriorated. The doctor appointments will continue and I have since gotten her some help around the house and a house cleaner. I do her shopping and go to hang out with her during the week and weekend. I pick up her laundry and bring it back to my place, I do her grocery shopping and I just do what I can for her.

The feeling to take care of her overwhelms me as I sometimes do not know where to begin and we are both learning what is going on with her and why her health has gone so downhill. I just hope that we can get her on the right track so that she is able to recover and move past all of this. I just keep telling her not to give up and to work hard. I just hope that I can find the strength to continue with this rollercoaster of emotions.

For now, all my focus and attention is on her and my break-up is on the backburner. I do what I can when I can. I guess things happen for a reason and maybe this free time that I have can be better spent taking care of my mama.