Losing a Friend

To my dismay a few days ago I received an email from a friend ending our friendship. We had been friends for 10 years and met through an ex-boyfriend. The first time I met Amy we didn't exactly hit it off, but as time went on we soon discovered that we shared a lot of common interests. We eventually started hanging out every weekend and talking on the phone every night, discussing how we were going to beat the boys at cards. Every Friday and Saturday night we would stay up until 2 or 3 in the morning laughing the night away.

As time went on we drifted a little but still managed to keep in touch and get together as often as we could. But then something changed, I was no longer dating her husband's lifelong friend and the wedge between us grew. We both made feeble attempts at keeping the friendship alive, but we both knew in our hearts this wasn't going to last.

Sadly it was a very small misunderstanding that broke us apart. But it was reason enough for her to decide to end it. Reading her letter brought me to tears, just knowing that she wasn't going to be in my life anymore made me want to cry even more. I've never cried before when a friendship has ended. I don't know how to explain it but there was a very special (unspoken) bond with Amy that I've never had with anyone before. I don't know if I will ever be able to have that again with a friend...

It makes me sad every time I think about her not being just a phone call away. I have tried reaching out to her but have gotten no response. I have no choice but to respect her wishes and move on...without her.

I know that I can't go back in time, but maybe, just maybe in the future our paths will be intertwined again. For now I wish her nothing but happiness; and hopefully this will only be a "So long for now my dear dear friend Amy".