Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Only the Lonely


How is it on the most romantic day of the year (according to Hallmark), I am feeling most lonely. Don’t get me wrong I am still with the Mr., but I seem to be missing one key ingredient in my life…friends.

I’m not sure when it all happened as I’ve always been social and had a lot of friends. I know moving so much in my life has played a major role in me not having ‘lifelong’ friends but I thought I had some friends. I know when my ex and I broke up he took a lot of the friends I had with him and I don’t think I ever really replaced them. Not that you can so easily but I don’t think I ever filled that void that I’ve been missing for quite a while now.

I read a book recently and a quote in that book was “…the power of friendship, the power of love, and the power of feeling complete.” I think I am missing that; I don’t have a whole lot of friends and I really wish that I did.

As we get older it seems that it’s getting harder to make any new friends as we seem to have all made the friends that we wanted to. With the time constraints that we have placed on us it’s hard to make the time with our girlfriends. In my case I lost some in a separation and the others had kids and left me in the dust. I tried, believe me I tried but if you don’t have anything in common anymore it’s like “…thanks for being my friend and have a good life.”

I don’t think that I’ve been the only person this has happened to; I have to believe that I’m not alone in my crusade. Maybe I’m too picky, maybe I’m a bad friend…I don’t know? I always thought I was a good friend…but now I am definitely having my doubts.

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