I Miss my Friends

I Miss my Friends

August 29, 2017

I was missing my friends when I was on maternity leave, just a specific few of them…but I had let it slide because I knew that we were in different stages of life. These gals were a good 15 years older than me and while I’m having my kids, their having grandkids. So I let it slide and then started to notice that my arch 'enemy' had somehow wormed her way back in with my select friends.

I had let it slide as I assumed it would be a fad and when she was done with them that she was going to move on to greener pastures like she normally does. That didn’t seem to be the case in this situation. Oddly though I had two of my friends approach me and tell me that they too missed me and that “it just wasn’t the same without me”. They also pinpointed my absence to the enemy and both had a similar opinion of her that wasn’t that stellar.

I had confirmed that the enemy was indeed like that and I thought she might’ve changed as time has gone on but I can’t speak to that as I haven’t talked to her in roughly 10 years. But it was definitely interesting to see that both of these ladies could see through the enemy’s façade but I couldn’t understand why the one friend couldn’t see it.

I was completely honest with both of these ladies and told them how I felt and how I would respect their time with the enemy. I decided to just take a step back and see where things go from here. I know in time the enemy will do something stupid and reveal her true colours but I don’t know how long it will be before that happens. Part of me wants it to happen sooner rather than later but karma doesn’t usually work that fast…not for me anyhow.

I also looked at it without callous and in a mature fashion that part of it was my fault that I was a new mom and wasn’t able to have the same friendship with them that I had before…but I also realized that it was a two sided coin. They could’ve made the effort as well as I did invite them to the baby shower and the boys’ first birthday…they just chose not to come. I guess I just decided that it was a time thing and we just drifted apart and maybe if it’s meant to be that we will somehow come back together.

If not, it was good while it lasted and we had some fun times and I will cherish those memories forever. They will always be a part of my life, whether it’s current, past or present.

You Gotta Be...

You Gotta Be…

August 25, 2017

I heard Des’ree singing this song today on the radio and it reminded me of my brother and sister graduating elementary school. My brother was held back a year so despite my brother and sister being a year apart they graduated elementary school at the same time.

For their graduation the teacher had put together a slideshow of her class of the memories throughout the school year.  It was playing to the song ‘You Gotta Be’ by Des’ree and the slideshow ended with a picture of my brother and sister hugging each other. I was videotaping the momentous event with my uncle’s videorecorder…the thing was huge and so heavy.

I remember taping the slideshow and as the song was coming to an end and my brother and sister’s picture was on the screen I cried. I was so touched by the gesture that the teacher had put together for her class and seeing both of them in that picture just made me so happy.

My brother was the valedictorian and gave a wonderful speech about moving forward with the next chapter of their lives and all I could think was ‘Yes, this is the next step to your future’. My how far we’ve come.

Every time I hear that song, I think of my kid sister and kid brother. About them graduating elementary school and just how far they’ve come in their lives. I hope that they want to continue to move ahead in life and keep making good decisions.

I will always associate this song with them and always wish all the lyrics in the song for them.