She
is With the Angels Now
February 14, 2014
Today is the day that I lost my mom…despite it being
Valentine’s Day; this will always be the day that I lost her.
I knew the end was near and sadly, I was in the room
when it happened. I wasn’t going to initially stay but something told me that I
needed to and I decided that I would not let her be alone. She brought me into
this world and the least that I could do was to be there for her when she took
her last breath.
I still cry when I think about it and I suspect I will
continue to cry for a long time. She was too young, she had so much life ahead
of her and it was cut short. I feel ripped off, I feel like she never got a
chance. Why did she have to go?
While saying this, her quality of life was non-existent
and she is no longer in pain. Doesn’t mean I don’t miss her…
I do not know what I will do with my time now…I came to
see her everyday. I would feed her supper and we would talk. I would tell her
stories and about what was going on in the world, we would watch TV shows
together. She would always laugh and boss me around. I would always tell her,
“You’re little, but you’re fierce”. She loved that, she loved knowing that we
were still scared of her in her frail condition.
Maybe one day it will all make sense but for right now,
I just want to be sad and miss her like crazy. It’s true, no matter how old you
are and you lose your parents…you’re never ready for it. It’s the circle of
life and we all know that parents will go before their kids but no one will
understand how powerful of a loss it is until it happens to you.
I miss you mom and will love you forever.
