How
Do You Know?
December 31, 2012
You know that ability to read people in their actions,
thoughts and responses. Well I wish I could turn that part of me off…
Most people would say it’s a good thing to be able to
‘read’ people, I on the other hand might have to disagree. It’s all fine and
dandy when you can read someone when good things are happening, but when bad
things are happening, well…it’s not so good. This is when someone can break
your heart with one look or one off the cuff comment. You can look into their
eyes and see to their soul. It’s as though they don’t want to do it but they
know they have to. Deep down you know they have to as well but you’re not ready
to hear it yet, I hate the way that makes me feel, so exposed, so vulnerable,
so heartbroken. I just want to cry.
That’s when I wish I could just shut that part of my
brain off for a little while and live in what I like to call ‘make believe
land’. It seems like it would be nicer to be completely oblivious to people’s
actions and thoughts. I know that there are many people who live this way; they
just do not have a clue. You wonder how they can function in the ‘real world’
and how they can even tie their own shoelaces. I guess the benefit to this is that they do
not experience the heartbreak or disappointment. They are just as surprised at
the outcome as everyone else is, is this a better way to function?
I cannot say for sure either way, I guess that is just
a part of being human but I could do without the hurt.
